The other day I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and was a bit horrified.
Staring back at me was a very tired lady whos eyebrows suddenly had no
shape because they were so outgrown. Her bangs were uncontrollably looming over her sagging eyeballs, and if you followed the thick trail of bang over-growth upward you saw a good two inches of ashy
out-grown roots. I quickly begin to try and tame my hair when I noticed...uh oh..
BARISTA HANDS.
For those of you who don't know, barista hands look something like this:
Misshapen, unclipped nails complete with chipping nail polish.
When your hands are in water all day its physically impossible to get your nail polish to last more than
24 hours. You see, lately I have been living at work. Which is a blessing and curse.God has seriously provided by giving me tons and tons of hours so I can make more money.But, as you can imagine, being at work 80% of my week is a bit of a drag and has caused me to become completely unphased by my haggard appearance. My first thought upon seeing this unrecognized beast in the mirror was "Oh god, I really let myself go...Poor Boyfriend of mine had to stare at this today???". I had an extra hour or two before bed and decided something HAD to be done. I whipped out my tweezers, face mask, and a couple tools to beautify my barista talons. I took a hot shower and suddenly became motivated to tame my hair too. That way when I awoke at 4am for work the next morning my hair would be somewhat presentable. I remembered my Grandma telling me if you twist your hair and bobby pin it when it's wet you get the same effect as sleeping with curlers.
Here are my make shift curlers. [Notice the over bang-age? So bad.]
Unfortuantely Grandma doesnt know what shes talking about because my hurr was TORE UP in the morning.
Or i suck at hair twisting. Either way, I still didnt look cute. Then I noticed that what was missing wasn't a bang trim, or a clear coat of nail polish,Or even re-colored roots.What was missing was a smile.
Joy was absent. Thankfulness was absent. I was going to work with two of my favorite girls that morning, laugh and joke,get paid, and drink/make some mostly decent coffee. I have SO much to smile about.
Pretty faces, pretty hair, pretty make up-that's all well good, but beauty is from the heart.
And when your heart isn't filled with joy, and thankfulness and gratitude, it's going to show more than your busted bangs. I love being reminded how little your appearance matters when your heart is crazy beautiful because as a woman you NEED to remember that. Boyfriend doesn't care about my out-grown roots or chipped nail polish, friends dont see your busted bangs; they notice your smile and the love you bless them with. And most important of all, God only notices your heart.
Thank goodness love is deeper than a good coat of nail polish and perfectly shaped bangs.
And of course, my morning realizations spawned an afternoon doodle sesh.